I have been back in the States, living in Iowa for three months now. The first 2 months were filled with the joy and comforts of being back in a familiar place and understanding what is happening around you. I enjoyed eating goodies I hadn't eaten for months, and the ease of living in a 1st world nation.
But if I were to be honest with you, I would have to say that I am not without my struggles. Loneliness and disillusionment seem to be a part of my daily life. Friendships have changed, people have moved on, and I am someone else. I try not to get sucked into the routine that seems to plague 9-5 life, just so that I don't lose focus on things that are really important to me. But just as my first few months in Romania were, life here has come at a surprising price of effort on my behalf. Its an effort make friends and keep them, an effort to shop, an effort to go out of the house.
But the future looks bright, and I hold onto the hope and knowledge that there is more to life than this. I am happy that I was able to find a small job working at a coffee house. Though the pay isn't very good, its something I enjoy doing for now, and its paying for my small needs. I have enrolled at Bethel University in Minnesota where I will start classes, God willing, in January next year. My brother is also going to have his first child in September. So there are many things to look forward to.
I just have to remind myself, just like I did when I first arrived in Romania, that the hard part is the beginning. I must hold on to my faith and live these next few months like they are the last few months of a great season. Because, who knows, life might never be this easy again. :)
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oh transitions......they are never easy! You will never be the same with all that you have experience and more than likely you will never be comfortable. That isn't a bad thing because if we get comfortable in our skin we get lost in the shuffle. God has a plan for you and he is using you! Hope you don't mind my most "unexpert" opinion?!! I do enjoy reading and catching up on your blog! take care. Donna (I'm a friend of tana's) you probably won't remember me but that's alright! LOL
I do remember you, Donna! And I want to thank you for your encouragement. I appreciate your feedback, cause its true- I am "ruined for the ordinary" and refuse to settle for less in my walk with GOD! Be blessed, Donna!
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